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Monday, July 17th, 2006

Time:5:54 pm.
Mood: like me..
wtf? what happened to my life? seriously. i'm thinking things that happened a month ago just happened last week. no joke.

and i've turned into a genuinley stupid person. i'm doing stupid shit and once it falls apart and i end up in a lot of trouble i get right back on it again as soon as i can. and i'm not talking about trouble with my parents.

it's like i stopped caring, and i can't make myself care again.

i got the OAR cd. it's good.
your life is shit.

Saturday, July 15th, 2006

Subject:i'm on tonight
Time:2:41 pm.
Mood: bored.
(i don't think what was originally written here makes me cool. that's why i took it off.)

but last night was pretty sweet. hung out in the catonsville middle school field with people i didn't know. fun stuff.

i'm on a roll.

i need to buy clothes.

my phone just turned itself off. what a bitch.

i'm a joker
i'm a smoker
i'm a midnight toker
i get my lovin on the run.
your life is shit.

Thursday, July 13th, 2006

Subject:it's kinda cute how i pretend to be everything but the instrument i am.
Time:11:45 pm.
Mood: chillll.
i'm here back in your bed, babe
remember what you said to me?
you can be my james dean,
i'll be your sweet queen
i said that you were my first
but you weren't even close now
like a frame in a movie
you're just one of many
can you grant me one last wish?
play russian roulette as we kiss
i'll be your cheap novelty
blow your brains out on me.

sorry for the lack of communication brianna. it wont happen again. now you know all this stuff though and you gotta keep it on the dl, yo.
1 got over it -your life is shit.

Wednesday, July 12th, 2006

Subject:my senses dulled
Time:8:34 pm.
Mood: ow..
my foot hurts. apparently it's not invincible like i had thought. i'm feelin it now.

i'm finally finding people that actually wear me out. this is what i want and i love it.
your life is shit.

Monday, July 10th, 2006

Subject:i'd pop a cap in sancho and i'd smack her down
Time:2:29 pm.
Mood: lovelovelove.
i lost my virginity ring! and my we are scientists cd!

anyway...wtf?

today's not going as planned. not that i thought it would - i knew it wouldn't. and it's not going to. there's no way that it would. but still. actually no, there's no 'but still'. i've just...i've GOT to get over it haha.

and i'm gettin there! duh!

work was cool last night, though - i hadn't been there in a while. a couple weeks.

i worked for jeff so he wasn't there...but...i don't know. it was fun. i was out on the floor and heard lucio break into song in the back a couple times haha...the customers were like wtf?

and we had to stay late and clean the place up for the FDA or something and kathy got ahold of a power washer haha...i tried to mop but i pulled the bucket apart at first (by accident) and then the end of the mop fell off when i picked it up so manuel took it from me, which was probably for the best anyway. he showed me how to mop first...it's pretty tricky. i'm not sure how many times that man has taught me how to mop haha. anyway...i got to squeegee the floor :)

i fell on my butt and had water all over my but for the last part of the night, lucio came up and put his arm around me and i tried to move and slipped on the water haha...you know how i roll.

i love my job. i work tuesdays, possibly wednesdays and some saturdays and sundays now. and fridays. still.

oh, and my driving test is friday. i don't really want to pass. it'll put me right back in the middle of my parents drama crap, carting kaitlyn and tj around and all that junk.

whatever.

i'm pretty happy with where i am in life right now and that's really all that matters, right?
your life is shit.

Sunday, July 9th, 2006

Subject:you and me and the lights down low.
Time:11:25 pm.
Mood: bouncy.
yo soy lucio's novia.

and i learned how to mop today. again.
2 got over it -your life is shit.

Saturday, July 8th, 2006

Subject:hangin on.
Time:12:04 pm.
Mood: i need to start sleeping..
fuck, man.



i need music. i don't know anyone musical and it's djfjh GAY. why are there no fucking musical people around here? seriously. it's ridiculous.



and i can't learn guitar fast enough to get all these songs out.



i need them out. i want to do something with them. i don't even...i don't know. i have basic ideas for the music b ut i need someone who can actually put it together. i can't play guitar yet, i can't do it.



anyway - last night was awesome. i think old ellicott city is my new home or something haha...i love it. we walked down the traintracks and sat on a big ass rock and just chilled. love it.



i'm really not looking for another relationship right now though. it's tooooo much. and i still have some things to work out before i can move onto another one anyway. i don't know.



i have to go...i didn't sleep last night and when i bend over my stomach wants to roll out my mouth...haha noooo fun. but i have my in-car and then my uncle wants me to go to the adventure park anniversary so...i gotta do that.



i got 5 minutes to look alive.
1 got over it -your life is shit.

Subject:heres to the nigt
Time:4:03 am.
Mood: jibberjabber.
whoputs the pictures in the thing at the frivetrhough in mcdonalds? i HAVE to kno w.

are you cool with just tonight?

sjdajsdkj!

i smoke rocks motha fucka!!!
your life is shit.

Thursday, July 6th, 2006

Subject:i love gettin high and i hate being low.
Time:1:23 pm.
Mood: bouncy.
apparently we have big ass orange flowers around our house.

i was not aware. i'm never home.

but yeah...the fourth of july rocked pretty hard :) ....tomorrow night is SURE to rock harder. back to catonsville. very exciting. some exciting things are supposed to happen.

i've decided i don't like the last part of songs, the two or however many times they repeat the chorus...it's too repetitive. i'm never going to put chorus' after my bridge. just the bridge and it's over. which..i'm not sure if that really ...i don't know...wait. something about not being sure if that defeats the purpose of a bridge. whatever.

i hate it when people sign online and put away messages up that are like 'around, bbl' (zach) or 'out' (desalivo). it's annoying as hell...if you're not there, sign offline. kthanks. unless you're waiting for someone or something. which you're probably not.

i hate the internet. i need to find something to do.

and i've got whatshisface exactly where i wanted him. and now i'm not sure if i want him there anymore, i kinda lost interest.

i can't find anyone to hold my interest, and i'm not looking.

i need to start sleeping. except i hate sleeping because then you lose a part of your life. i'd rather be going out at night like i've been doing instead of sleeping. it's more productive.

okokokok...i fsdflkjs HATE the internet i'm gone.
your life is shit.

Saturday, July 1st, 2006

Subject:i don't mind stealing bread.
Time:6:43 pm.
Mood: no sleep..
i hadn't hung out in catonsville in FOREVER.

basically...the night consisted of getting lost on 32 for two hours trying to get to zach's haha...giving up...double T...chairs...some kid...7 eleven...ludacris...weird creepy guys...and stuff. it was good stuff.

vince and i went on a little adventure yesterday, too. i got bit by an earwig...yeah.

today i've been on a mission to find that buzz ballads cd...i've gone all over frederick looking for the thing.

and by all over i mean FYE and record and tape traders. i got tired of walking after that.

and i realize now that you can only order that cd. i realized it before hand, i just needed something to do.

...im not sure if i would want toilet paper named after me.

this guy better have a quirky personality or it's just not gonna happen. or maybe it will...we will see.
3 got over it -your life is shit.

Sunday, June 25th, 2006

Subject:sound effects and overdramatics.
Time:8:19 pm.
Mood: crushed.
wow...i didn't realize that was still a problem.

wow.

shit.

that...that sucked. real bad.

i'm going to go shoot myself. in the head.

only not really. i don't have the guts.

or a gun.
1 got over it -your life is shit.

Subject:this is nice.
Time:5:29 pm.
Mood: distressed.
i'm so not computer smart.

i KINDA figured out how to make my livejournal thing pretty...but the colors are all gross now.

and i don't know how to fix them!
your life is shit.

Time:1:26 pm.
Mood: bored.
lovely, you're always lovely
a vision
you were the one
now i am stuck inside a memory
you buried me
didn't you? didn't you?

love me faster than the devil
run me straight into the ground
drowning deep inside your water
drowning deep inside your sound

maybe i am a crowded mind
i watch your eyes glaze over
stared down at the ground
you were amazing to me
i was amazing to you
but  here we go again...didn't you?
1 got over it -your life is shit.

Saturday, June 24th, 2006

Subject:i don't seem obvious, do i?
Time:3:07 pm.
Mood: chipper.
i'm not doing either; i've found something better to do.
your life is shit.

Friday, June 23rd, 2006

Subject:all the lace
Time:1:16 pm.
Mood: bored.
i want to meet someone who's not afraid to get lost with me. and who'll go on adventures and then just go back to where ever and chill afterwards. or stay where we are and chill. i want to meet someone who doesn't have all the same interests as me so we can expand our horizons or whatever. i want someone who cares and doesn't just pretend they do to get into my pants. i definitely want someone musically inclined. they have to like being outside and not just being cooped up all the time, and love the night life as much as i do. my friends don't have to like them and they don't have to like my friends, all that matters is that we like eachother. i like little flaws and someone who's not afraid to show their feelings...but not someone who's overdramatic because i've got that down to an art myself. someone who bites. someone who is willing to make it through hard times, and won't put up with my crap. i don't want a push-over. they don't have to be perfect, i don't want them to be perfect. i want someone who doesn't like set plans, just to say we're going to hang out and nothing else. who'll just go with whatever we feel like doing at that point in time. 

it looks like a lot, but it's really not that much. higher expectations have been made.

but really...i don't think i want anyone at all.
your life is shit.

Subject:laundry detergant.
Time:11:19 am.
Mood: my nose itches..
here are the rest of the pictures. very exciting.

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1 got over it -your life is shit.

Thursday, June 22nd, 2006

Subject:la
Time:8:30 pm.
brianna and i spent the night in a mach truck last night.</p>

it was the shit.

the cops came looking and...we were stealthy. fun stuff. i love adventures with her.

and we had a camera.


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Subject:asasdsad
Time:2:00 pm.
Mood:creative.
i feel light and breezy. with a hint of a sickly stomach approaching.

and that is my weather forcast.

this diserves a song.

of breezyness.

laaaaaaaaaai am breezy
for sheezy
with a new steering wheel cover
i hover
in a breezyness
ohhhhhhhhh breezyness
ohhhhhhhh sheezy ness
iiiiiiiiii ammmmmmmmmmmmmmmm  laaaaaaaaaaa
1 got over it -your life is shit.

Subject:i'll close my eyes so i can focus soley on you.
Time:11:21 am.
Mood: dirty.

i've done some stupid stuff...but this one's just...i don't know.

ick.

i'm thinkin i should get some sleep but i'm pretty...awake or whatever so that's not going to happen. sleep's overrated, anyway.

i hope i can do music tonight...i really want to. it would probably definitely make me feel better. but i haven't heard back about that so i don't even know what's going on there. hopefully it's all going down.

but for now - i'm getting out of the house.

your life is shit.

Wednesday, June 21st, 2006

Subject:i'll never let you down, even if i could
Time:2:36 am.
Mood: tired.
tonight/this morning
 
we
-went to sam goody 
-over to lakefront...there was a shooting star, that place is just...amazing.
-went to blockbuster and got dazed and confused
-went back to the apartment and watched it...duh.
-and stuff.

it was a good night. just...chill.

tomorrow i've got to go find another job.
your life is shit.

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